Money Small Consolation

Just received full pay this morning so I'm trying hard to be all glass-half-full and focus on all the goodies money can buy instead of getting down thinking of all the things it can't. Boo hoo. Feels like forever, I'm verging on desperation ha ha. No, I think I'm waaay past desperation. As happy as I am to be receiving $$$ over here, I also wanna be doing other things, seeing other people in KL ;) he he. I'm a greedy bitch who wants my cake, topped with icing & cherry, then eat it and ask for a 2nd helping. Whatever, I'm thinking positive and that means mentally spending all the cash already. Shoes and watches, here I come! LOL
Seriously though, I'm glad to see the end of SUKMA. If I had to answer another question about why I'm not off pursuing some gold medal or other while my sisters are busy bringing glory to the family name blah blah, I think I'll explode. Its like they keep trying to challenge my creativity to come up with smart, witty comebacks. I've given a million different responses and my current default one is just a lifeless 'he he he' that I hope implies the meaning 'shut the eff up or i'll cut u with my razr'. It's not like I'm jealous or anything (just a tiny bit OK!), but I don't wanna be made to feel like I've an STD, a criminal record and a drug addiction while the rest of the fam are sitcom-perfect. Like, get over it.
Anyways, just saw my sister and her boyfriend together for her tournament the other day and they were like so schweet! Hand-holding, sweat-wiping and food-feeding, awww. He even had like, A Serious Talk with my momma where they were talking bout Jac. Like seriously talking. Deep stuff. Scary. Are those wedding bells I hear?