Oh My Look at the Length of This!

So I was thinking, it's my first post of 2010; maybe I should make more of an effort because these beginning-of-the-year / year-end ramblings and thoughts are usually a little more profound/deep/meaningful?

I didn't mean to end the sentence as a question but my writing skills are totally failing me and I can't think of a right way to finish the thought (heee luckily I'm taking writing skills class this semester) so I thought maybe a question mark would do for now.

And I was thinking and thinking like why, what is it about year-ends and new-years that make people wanna think deep thoughts about how their year has been, what have they achieved, how they could have been better, etc etc etc? Cuz that is so totally Not Me.

Maybe I'm not at the right age to be reflecting on Life just yet. Though you do see some 17 and 18 year-olds who are very mature and like they know what exactly they want and where they are. So maybe I'm just bloody immature and shortsighted.

Yeah, Whatever. All I can say for 2009 is that it went by really, really FAST. And it's not in the way where it feels as though time flies because I was very busy or doing Very Important Things. In fact, it might be the exact opposite. The year just passed by in a haze of like, nothingness.

Like, oh there goes April, and May, and June... What? It's November already? Funny, feels like I haven't done anything at all lah this year. Ya know? That kinda feeling?

In fact, the only month that felt like it had any significance to me was October. Apart from my birthday month la of course. That one is significant because it serves as reassurance for me that people really care and love me enough to spend time and money to celebrate the fact that I was born. Yeah, I'm really shallow/insecure like that :p

So yeah, October. It was the one month where I did several things that I always said I wanted to do but never did/things I only thought about but never took a proactive step towards/things that are New. You get the idea. So the first one was I got a Job. Clap clap, old news by now. Every sem break I say I'm gonna get a job, I'm gonna get a job but this time I really did. To those who laughed and said I couldn't last one week before being fired for giving customers Attitude, HAR HAR HAR. I knew I could do it :)

The second one was going for the 8tv Quickie host search. Which doesn't seem that big of a deal considering that I got nowhere but still! It was a major step on my part, especially taking into account my HUGE self esteem issues! Usually I'd be like, he auditioned for a reality show!? Isn't that a little attentionfamewhoredesperate? But what to do, when you wanna be famous, you gotta be desperate! And I Wanna Be Famous! I AM Desperate!! Ha kidding. Sort of. I mean like, talking is something I know I can do unlike, singing for example. Heehee. So Why Not? You never know till you try, right? Maybe if I wasn't so gelabah I'd be all up in your TV right now! LOL. So yeah, this year I been telling everyone that I'mma go all out attentionfamewhore cuz I wanna be famous before I'm 21. Yeah right, famous in 3 months. Good luck with that. A bitch can dream though riiighht?

The last one was the most unexpected. Me, commercial, okaybye. You know what, I think if any of my friends are down, I just need to play this video and when my fat face shows up on screen, they be smiling again.

P.S I can't believe I cannot escape from the word 'whatever'. I was trying so hard to write something that was bimbo-free, something that would make people go, wah I can't believe he wrote something like this but aiyah whatever lah! This is me, no use changing this and that just cuz it's 2010 :D